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"Here in the darkness I know myself."

I am now a dark brunette. From platinum blonde. It was a wee bit of a change and I still get a heart attack every time I look in the mirror, but I was tired of the stasis and now everyone and their dogwalker has the blonde-on-top-black-on-bottom, so I decided it had to go. Pic in scraps for whateverwhocares.

"If you believe in me how can I be dissolving?"

The latest tat is healing beautifully but it's still too shiny in photos. Bought a couple movies at Blockbuster today... and uhhh... possibly moving soon because my landlord doesn't want more than one person living in my apartment. I found out my manager's fiancee has been having a shitfit about me for some weird reason and that's why I went from full time hours to like two shifts a week. Yay for new managers! My boyfriend's cat moved in with us for like two days but it turns out I am in fact deathly allergic to Siamese too. He was adorable though. My life is so boring, but I kind of like it like that right now.

"I watched a change in you... it's like you never had wings."

1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Uhhh if I can't then I won't post it. Durr.

2. If you married the last person you messaged, what would your last name be?
Stewart

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Not really, I had to work.

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
Today, with Mat.

7. What are you excited for?
Uhh. Mat's birthday, and moving.

8. What were you doing yesterday?
Sleeping, making dinner, watching a movie, playing WoW.

9. Can you honestly say you're happy with your life right now?
Yes.

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Strawberry-raspberry crumble.

11. Have a best friend?
Yep.

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
Terrified.

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes.

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Bitch.

15. What time is it right this second?
8:31PM

16. What do you want right now?
Money.

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Mowgli (kitty!) or Mat.

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Taken.

19. When was the last time you cried?
Like a week ago.

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Yeah.

21. Do you find it hard to trust other people?
Yes.

22. How fast does your mind change?
Constantly.

23. I bet you miss somebody right now
Who doesn't?

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Yep.

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Because they're together with their partner for the wrong reasons now.

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
Figuring out how to keep myself occupied tonight without spending money.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Mat's birthday.

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Sure.

29. When did you last talk to your best friend from elementary school?
Oh fuck. Months ago.

30. When is your next road trip?
Toronto in July.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Getting there.

32. How's your heart?
??

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Of course.

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
I hope so.

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Listen to music and play games.

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes.

38. Who do you not get along with?
Cocky morons.

39. What does you 3rd recent text say?
"Free Bell message!" telling me about shit I will never, ever pay for from those bastards.

40. What are you wearing right now?
Jeans and a black tee.

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
Naked.

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
A couple months ago.

43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
I don't know.

44. How do you usually feel when you wake up?
Tired.

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Not really in the mood for socializing.

46. If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first?
A house for my parents that's out of the city.

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Trying to sleep.

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
LMM

49. Whos the first B in your contacts?
Blanche

50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
Can't remember, I laugh too much.

51. Here's the story:
"you suck" (I like this story lol)

52. Last awkward moment?
Probably today... meeting the new manager.

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
sometimes

54. Do you have good vision?
Laser eye surgery.

55. Have you ever tripped someone?
Yep.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.

57. Are you Irish?
In part.

58. Do you use chap stick?
Cherry.

59. Have you ever woke up next to someone and wanted to puke?
lol only when hungover

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Yes.

61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
Yes.

62. What annoys you most about a person?
Cockiness and stupidity.

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Maybe.

64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
Barely.

65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
Yes.

66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Usually outside bc I have to pee first thing in the morning lol.

67. Whats the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
Puke, or eat a bagel LIKE A BOSS

Tell me the truth, why did you fall in love with your ex?
If I'm not forgetting anybody, I didn't love my most recent ex... even though i said I did. I'm a betch.

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?
Yes.

Is anything bothering you?
The sour cream we bought is full fat.

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
Uhh... the delivery company.

How do you feel right now?
Satisfied.

Does anyone call you babe?
Yes.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
I have four.

What are you most anxious/excited for?
Anxious? School starting again. Excited? Mat's b-day.

What is your favorite drink?
Rockstar coffee.

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
Moar slp plz.

Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Most of it yes.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Around 8.

Do you know anyone who has been arrested?
Yes.

If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
Seven years.

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
Yes, sort of lol.

Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
A lot.

What's something you do when you're mad?
Take it out on whoever is around me.

When is the last time you said "I love you"?
This morning.

Have you ever had someone sing to you?
Ma...yy...bbeee?

Who was last person you texted last night?
idk

What’s on your mind?
I made a plate of nachos and can't finish them.

Have you done something bad today?
Not that I know of.

Are you jealous of someone right now?
Will always be jealous of anyone hotter.

What makes you happy most of the time?
The usual.

What are/were you doing at 12 this afternoon
Working.

Do you get distracted easily?
Ye - ooh a butterfly!

Have you ever felt like you were being two-timed?
Yes.

Who's the last person to give you a hug?
Mat.

What's your favorite time of day?
I don't like the day.

If you could see any band in concert, who would it be?
Disturbed.

What song always makes you happier when you're sad?
Any mindless Britney Spears/Lady Gaga type crap.

Have you lost a friendship and then later regained it?
Yes.

What was your first job?
Delivering newspapers.

Is there wallpaper anywhere in your house?
My parents', yes.

Have you ever been in love?
Yes.

Name one thing you'd like to do right now:
Eat some candy.

What is your favorite topping for ice cream?
Chocolate syrup is good.

Who was the last person to call you baby?
Mat.

What's the last thing you had to start over?
"The Day the Earth Stood Still", bc I wanted to watch it on the boy's giant monitor.

How do you feel about God?
No. Just no. Insert eye rolling and disgusted scoffs.

Do happy endings exist in your world?
We'll see.

Which decade would you go back to if you could?
Mid 90s.

How do you know when a moment is real?
Only in hindsight.

Have you ever painted a wall?
Yes.

Does anyone have a pet name for you?
Yes.

Think to the first person you kissed in '09, did they mean a lot to you?
Nope.

Do you think two people can last forever?
Yes.

When was the last time you held hands with someone?
Yesterday.

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
Always.

Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?
Yes.

Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?
Yes, actually.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
indeed

Who's bed did you sleep in last besides your own?
My brother's when I stayed at my parents'... my own mattress is at my apartment now.

Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Yup.

Have you kissed more than ten people in the last year?
Probably.

Are you an argumentative person?
Yes.

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly?
No.

How old are you right now?
20

How many people have you kissed this school year?
It's summer.

Will this weekend be a good one?
Nah. Work.

What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
Lurves.

Your last kiss probably meant nothing to you, right?
It meant a lot.

You're thinking about someone right now, aren't you?
Yes.

What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Falling asleep.

Last person you were on the phone with for more than 20 minutes?
Cat, most likely.

Will tomorrow be better than today?
Yes.

Are you open about your feelings, or closed off?
Very closed off unless I'm angry.

Do you have any summer plans yet?
Picton, Circa.

If the last person you kissed tried to kiss you again, would you kiss them?
Yes.

Think back eight months ago, were you single?
Yep.

Do you know if anyone likes you?
Yep.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
When I don't want them known.

What are you suppose to be doing right now?
Nothing.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes.

When someone says "we need to talk", what do you think?
Panic attack.

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
A drink.

If somebody liked you, would you want them to tell you?
Yes.

Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them?
Nope.

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
Hope so.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Nope.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
I hope so.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
Mat.

Are you a patient person?
Hell no.

When was the last time someone was mean to you for no reason?
There is always a reason people are assholes, even if it's not apparent or not your fault.

When you think about growing old, what is the first thing that comes to mind?
Terror.

Which do you spend more time thinking about: your dream wedding, or your actual marriage - if either?
Well I don't have either atm but since I don't really care about the actual wedding only the groom, I suppose my dream wedding.

What is the last thing a parent or guardian purchased for you?
Foodstuffs.

Have you ever purposely harmed an animal, other than a bug?
No.

Have you had/do you need braces?
Invisaligns.

Who or what generally wakes you up in the morning?
I just wake up.

Is it easy for you to tell when someone is lying, or when they are being insincere?
Usually.

What is one thing about yourself you wish you could change?
Fatness.

When you're having a bad day, do you try to make it better, or just wallow in it?
I distract myself.

What kind of things do you tend to keep in your pocket?
I try not keep anything in my pockets, but I usually end up with my phone, change, and receipts.


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To do:

~lunatic-13 - lineart done, awaiting response
~dracontiar - awaiting request
~triggerman - concept
~nevhy - pending scan
~dashcat - concept
~hydraness - concept
*Original Shimmer - concept
-"Quoth the raven, 'Nevermore!', then quoth the raven nevermore..." - Pencil done
-Wyvern - To be posted in scraps.
-So Far Away - Pending scan/photo
-Swimming Harak-'Na - Pencil done
-Mushroom Cloud - Concept
-CrissCross rear/DooM - Concept
-Don't Jump - GAVE UP, pending scan for scraps.
-Alien Nation - Sketching
-Even in Death - Sketching
-Sikryx - Inking
-Harak-'Na fight - Inking